Remembering Someone I Never Knew

Remembering Someone I Never Knew

My great grandfather lived twenty eight years.
His life and destiny: husband, father, soldier, farmer.
His farm, family and the fields were the sum and total of his life.

All memory of his life and family have vanished.
He exists only in books of records.

I search him out because he is a link in the family chain.

He fathered my grandfather, who fathered my father- who fathered me.
Surely that alone must warrant the search.

Who was he, this man. This husband, father, soldier and farmer.
What bought him joy? What disturbed his rest?
Was he kindhearted and generous, or mean and miserly?

From sunrise to sunset everything in his world connected
him to the soil beneath his feet.

The world and perhaps living life beyond the boundaries of the farm
were secondary to his role as son, husband, father and farmer.

Is this the life he chose; was marriage and farming and fatherhood
expected but not wanted? Did he dream of a different life?
What cut his life so early? Fever – Injury?
Who stood beside his grave and grieved his passing?

No matter, without this life and those who were before him,
I would not be here. From his life I am here.

There is no portal to view the time and place where I too will shed
my cloak of skin, or know who will grieve — or remember that I too once lived.

I Look back at the events that shaped my life I see how
I rushed to marriage and motherhood as expected.
And found in each both sorrow and joy.

My vision and avocation also differ.

The dry powdery earth beneath my feet is far different from the moist,
rich soil plowed by my great grandfather.

Yet, if I sowed the same seed as my great-grandfather planted.
it would still bear the fruit of its kind.

Each seed meets its own destiny.
Not every seed falls on fallow ground.
Every seed does not bear fruit.
The seed itself becomes food of another.

He is my history. I am one facet of his life.

Every life has meaning, promise, and purpose.
His life my search.

My search- his life, and a chance for both of us to live again.

Why should I fret and fume today because no one knows of him?
Am I not his great granddaughter?

Am I not a grandmother myself?
Rachel – 2003©
Rachel – 2016 Great-grandmother

Remembering – – SLAUGHTER, b 1846 Pope Co IL – Parents unknown.
Union soldier – death 1849- unknown illness – after his return from
service as military guard: His task- guarding Confederate prisoners
Arkansas.   
His gravestone – once unreachable –
lost in weeds, grasses and thorny bushes – located – 2006. 
He left a widow and two children – a son – a daughter.

a man knows a man

 

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In Memory of The Many

“Memorial Day was born out of necessity. After the American Civil War, a battered United States was faced with the task of burying and honoring the 600,000 to 800,000 Union and Confederate soldiers who had died in the single bloodiest military conflict in American history.” Family loyalties were torn- Family against Family and Neighbor against Neighbor.

a man knows a man

Present Day
One Nation – One Flag

Lest we forget those who
fought for liberty-justice

In Memory of The Many

Today, we Recognize the Brave.
Respect the Forgotten.
Remember the Lost.
Honor the Unknown

Some came home – whole in body, mind_ Spirit
Some came home brokenhearted-Injured.
Some came home missing limbs.
Some came home missing friends.

In Honor of All
For those died in the field:
The unknown, the lost_
forgotten.

Though you now abide in the
Grand Silence – your sacrifice
is remembered.

We are Free … Because of the Brave
This is a day for memories. Where
we were – what that horrific
battle represented.

Today is not for presidential speeches.
parades – beer fests, BBQ’s, or
celebrating the beginning
of summer vacation _
National sports
games.

T Oaks candle vigil

This is a time for reflection… 

After the horror of the days of a war long past
This is a day to express our common grief
of that particular war – Perhaps a
day to reflect on the healing
for our nation. There is a
sickness hovering … there
is a lust for greed – for
power.

Am I alone in hearing the
the beat of the drums
of war?

Am I alone-in my fear that we will
be forced to revisit the very cause
of the great rift in our nation
that left the many hundred
thousands – to their destiny
– Grand Silence

I fear we are called again to
fight for justice liberty, civil –
human rights… Can this
fight be avoided?

Thank You
 

The words are inadequate expression of
our sorrow. Your brave legacy lives on –
If only briefly in our tears.

The Sound of Freedom
The thrumming of our heart,
our memories_ tears.

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If one member is honored, all rejoice together with it.—1 Corinthians 12:26

The Government Was Never Meant to Become The Family Guardian. Period.

Democracy has all but vanished due largely to the bizarre, foolish and reckless directives drafted, endorsed and supported  to meet the preferences and priorities of the ultra conservative biblical priorities of the Republican Leadership.

 

The President and the Republican party have abandoned their promise of being accountable to the American people to the Constitutional System, Limited Government, Separation of Powers, and the Preservation of the rights of the people which were intended to be preserved; uncompromised for future generations.

Women have the right to vote: Before 1920, few politicians paid any attention to the issues affecting women, but all of that changed when the 19th Amendment was passed. The 19th Amendment guaranteed that women could influence government decisions by voting.

  • That being said: Women are no longer the property of their husband. That being said Women are not the property of the United States Government.
  • Let’s discuss the Republican led endeavors to impose upon or interfere with the Constitution’s fundamental principle of an individual’s liberty and/or privacy. 
  • Something is seriously wrong when Republican held state legislatures are interpreting laws as written by Congress to suit individual privately held religious priorities. 
  • We are not personal chattel – Or State Property if you will; property to be bought, traded, bartered, regulated and sold. 
  • Something is seriously wrong when the language of legislation is deliberately written to intentionally menace,  subdue, discourage restrictive indeed to and punish her. This is a direct threat- this is judgmental. It is demeaning. Legislation like this deems women are chattel. 
  • Something is seriously wrong when women are particularly singled out by Republicans to become targets – subjected to hate campaigns, threats of violence_subjected to punitive-restrictive attempts to criminalize our private and  personal reproductive rights.
  • Religion, Patriarchy and Biology: Patriarch is a title. A male, a ruler- often authoritarian. Often a tyrant – who oversees, denies or grants rights – the choice of a mate, the circumstances of the mating and who shall occupy and govern a woman’s daily life and home, and how youngsters will be raised.

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Beyond the Skin and the Mask

Love is without form; an indefinable manifestation
of the exquisite compassion of the heart, an inner
essence of unique and remarkable capabilities
that circulates throughout the body through
the thin thread of red running through
our veins.

Man is always in a state of becoming:
love transitions us from the old to
the new, reaching out_ in and to.

Love envelopes, unfolds, transcends.
It’s inconsistent, illogical, indefensible:
evolutionary, revolutionary;
u
ndeniable. Ever evolving. 

Love doesn’t bind or limit or know
of gender attractions.

Illogically Love grabs hold of us;
by its very nature it holds on
to see us through the dark
night of the soul

Love is greater than words
from the lip, sweeter than
honey and wine

‘Lovers don’t suffer love
They savor it’

 

heart-flame

‘Love doesn’t bind or limit…’

Special thoughts to be savored and shared
Sharing Sacred Ground Collection-©-
2011 – Rachel Wolff

The Animal Farm – another version

The Animal Farm – Pennsylvania Avenue
Old McGrump Had a Farm – Ei- ei- oh

Old McGrump is a mean old Bastard –
Always walking ‘round his farm
with a riding crop in hand.

He’s a nasty old fart, always expects everyone
to
kneel and bow – and take his shyte
without a whimper.

Everyone, the old bastard said, is
equal_but, he said, some are more
equal
than others.

On his farm, he keeps a cow, a sow,
a bat_ quite a few rats,
and his shrew.
KellyAnne revolutionary

a few young bucks, creepy crawlies
and a snake or two.

Old McGrump keeps his chickens, 
turtles and dinosaurs on a short
leash. Keeps his wife tucked
away in a tower.

Old McGrump, The Falsifier:
He’s always right. (Except when he’s wrong,
but he’s never
 wrong.

He always tells the truth – (except when he lies)
He denies he lies…But – he lies. 

Once upon a time, he kept a girl to make his huckleberry
pies; a southern gal who tried to sell his lies.

From time to time he calls on
Pastor Grimm for prayer or
two – Grimm is looking forward
to the rapture –
politician preacher

Old McGrump calls in favors from Faux News
and Putin too. They’re all looking to make a
happy dollar or two.

“Screw em, old McGrump said- Goodnight old friends…
Screw ‘em good… McPence nods and waits… 


McGrump, once in bed -Satisfied with his plans – (he doesn’t realize

that cankers of death have already taken his soul;) ‘I’m the winner,’
the old sybarite sighs. He
dreamed of windmills, walls, sanctions,
crowns empires, victories. He believes he will live forever. 

Old McGrump rules with harshness and force: 
He never thinks beyond himself_ never thinks of
the hate – the hurt –
the devastation caused by his extremist
actions.

How his actions have devastated the Union. How his
directives 
sabotaged justice_ destroyed domestic
tranquility. How he’s failed to provide for the
common defense. 
Failed to improve the well-being
of the nation. — Devastated the blessings of liberty.

The world is not a safe place. How can it be when our
liberties, freedoms, and avenues to justice are
being stripped away day by day?

Aided by his cows, sows; his vampire_ his rats and his shrew.
His young bucks, his creepy crawlies, and snakes – his
chickens, turtles, and dinosaurs -all expect
him to become emperor of the world.

crown

McGrump thinks he will live forever – Ah, but …McPence … waits in the wings with
dreams of his own.

 

plans for mike

 

 

Everyone Should Be Treated Fairly

My LGBT family and friends

You have the right to experience
unconditional love.

I stand with you as a friend and ally 

I see the goodness in you_ 
I love you_ 
bless you_ 

You are loved, wanted, needed.

You have the right to be seen -
have your voice heard.

You have a place- you have a purpose.
You have the right to feel safe and cared
for in your family home. The places
you shop, study, play_ pray. 

You have the right to speak up,

the right to be seen 
the right to be heard
treated with care
kindness_
respect.

I want you to know this- deep in your heart...

I want you to know  you are cared for.
I want You to know  you are needed.
I want you to know You are wanted.

No one has the right to tell another person how they should feel:
You have the right to express feelings of affection to

your lover, husband, wife

You have the right to health care.

You have the right to marry your sweetheart.
You have the right to safe housing.
You have the right to job security.

You have the right to feel safe and secure on the street,

in a shopping mall; at your work, on the bus…
those places you eat, sleep, play,
worship_study.
*

~Hearth and Home~

A House
A house is a structure of form; a space;
a relationship with space.
A structure of form;an architectural
design on a street: An address.


A conceptual layout of space with a roof: It has walls, floors, a stove, sinks
and drains. Closets; a flow plan.
It’s an ideal we seek.


A Family
 
‘A family is made of people who are bound together by birth, by law,

or by love.

‘A family consists of two
Or more people who live together or are
related by ancestry or marriage.
And we all come in different
sizes and shapes.’
 

~Hearth and Home~
 
A home is where we live our intimate
lives: It’s a bonding place between
two or more
 
It’s more than nooks and crannies
closets and drawers; it’s more than

a place to lie our head and
place our stuff
and clutter
 
A home is a sanctuary_ with a
fire in the hearth radiating
warmth and light
 
A home is a cheerful place
filled with family and
friends and games
and jokes and
laughter
 
It is a place of security; a place
of trust and respect:  It is a
place to hug and dance:
A place to love and
kiss and laugh_
to cry and
mourn
 
The home is a place of peace.
A quiet retreat: The hearth
the center point; that
welcoming place we
yearn for at the end
of a day or a
journey
*

Hearth and Home-©
Dedicated to ‘Eric and Nick’ and
All same gender couples who have adopted children or who desire to make a home for children; and Let’s Reach 1 Million People Campaign
Rachel Wolff – 2012

The hearth
The center point; that
Welcoming place we
Yearn for at the end
Of a day or a
Journey